“A very personal journey and valuable for its candid honesty”
M.K.Wiseman, Author (@FaublesFables)
“Talented and brave”
Richard Pierce, Author (@tettig)
“A brave and worthy endeavour”
Mark Cantrell, Author (@Mark_ExcelHack)
Here it is, the download page.
Check out the About page for more information but, in short, Down Days is a point-of-view insight into what it feels like to live with depression, written by someone who deals with it every day.
It’s free to download, free to distribute. I would appreciate, however, if you could send people to download it for themselves wherever possible. Firstly, so that I can know how many people have read it, and secondly so that people can see the other information on this site and share their own stories if they would like to.
Here’s the introduction to the book:
I don’t want to miss-sell you this book, and so here’s a list of things that you won’t find between these pages. You won’t find any advice of the practical sort. I don’t think the purpose of this book is to be uplifting. I’m certainly not going to concern myself with technical terms and categories.
While we’re talking about what this book isn’t; it isn’t a cry for help, a request for advice, or the seeking of attention. I don’t want that. What I’m about to share with you is extremely personal and the reason I’m writing it down is that it’s easier. Behind this keyboard, it’s easier. I’m happy hiding back here thankyouverymuch. For now, try to understand that me seeking solace, comfort or support from you out there isn’t what this book is about. As you read, you’ll hopefully begin to understand why I feel that way.
What you will find is honesty. This is me, as I am; someone who is a fully functioning adult with aspirations and loved ones. I also have what I call “down days”. These are days when the world seems to peel away leaving me a shivering, naked fruity centre. I won’t be blinding you with science, but I will be telling you how it actually feels to have depression. At least, I’ll try. Because, as I’m sure you can imagine, it’s a hard thing to describe.
There will be swear words. Swear words are expressive, beautiful things and I intend to use them.
I envisage that, if anyone reads this book at all, there might be two kinds of readers. One of them will be a lot like me. They deal with some of the issues that I deal with, albeit their reasons and experiences will vary wildly. The other kind will be The Interested. The kind of people who are striving to know more. Perhaps they have loved ones like us, or work with them, or they’re just curious. Whichever you are, person dangling over this page, I’m sorry if the words fail me. I’ll type words now that, at times, have the ability to make me cry if I say them out loud. I’m trying. Partly for you and partly for me.
For Those-Like-Me, I’m hoping I can find some words, some way of getting it across, that you can use yourself. I know how hard it is to start a conversation, or begin to describe to those who don’t understand how you’re feeling. If just one sentence of this book is useful to you, I’ll consider my bleeding fingers worthwhile. Hell, just hand that special person a copy of the book and let them read it for themselves. Some things are best said silently.
For The Interested, I hope that you might gain a little insight into how it feels for someone like us. You’ve had these feelings yourself. Everyone has. But there’s something extra about someone with depression isn’t there? Something that makes it all come crashing down around them in a way you can’t really understand. What is that thing? I have no idea. But, if I describe it to you just right, maybe you’ll figure it out for yourself and write your own book. Please do, because I really want to read that.
This book will be uneven.
There will be days that I sit here, switched on and fiery with words spilling out of me. There will be down days. I’m going to try my damnedest to still write on those days. Because maybe, just maybe, you’ll see something there that I can’t describe. That’s my hope.
For that reason, I won’t be changing anything when I edit later. If I add something, it will be in square brackets [like this] so that you can see what I’ve done. No secrets.
Now, here’s the file:
If you want to share your own story on the Down Days blog, head over to the Contact page
The book is free. However, if you feel compelled to help out with a donation, here are some worthwhile charities:
No Panic – National Organisation for Panic, Anxiety Neuroses, Information and Care
And a list of others HERE